Ladies of Hive Community Contest #260/Self doubt

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Hey beautiful ladies of hive.
Hope you had great weekend. I found this week contest so interesting and it has affected me before. I have doubted myself so many times so let me share with you. See link of the Contest and join us.

Write about a time when you overcame self-doubt.

Self doubt is the feeling that you can't do it. The feeling of you are not qualified for a certain task giving to you to handle. This could be as a result of background, tribe, language or not attended high school. It could also be as a result of divorce or war. In all, you felt that you are not worthy at all.
I have felt that way years back, if you are feeling so right now, don't worry is part part of life. It helps you to be strong, resilience and courageous. Know it that you are not alone. As you read my story on how I overcame self-doubt, see areas it will help you to overcome self-doubt. If I can you can do it also

How I overcame self-doubt

I was born in a family where no one went to higher school. When I finished primary school, my parents said that they don't have money to send me to higher school. That was the worst thing in my life though I was one of the best students in my time. You need see how I prepared myself to enter high school. I felt disappointed to the point that I felt my parents hate me.

I also see myself as unworthy to attend high school. I thought that I won't do well in school that is why my parents refused to send me to school. I joined my mother in her business and made a lot of mistakes. When my mom tried leaving her business in my care, I feel that I can't handle it so I will tell her, stay here,I won't be able to stay alone. It continued for yes but one day something happened that forced me to take charge of my life, my mother's business and everything around me.

It was on May 6th 1986 when my mother gave birth to my youngest sister. We were together in the market wherever the labuor started. I didn't know what was really happening to her so she told me that she want to collect something from the store. I didn't know she went back to the house get her things and went to hospital. I was all alone in the market hoping she is coming but she wasn't coming. I became worried but couldn't leave the market. Inside me, I wasn't smiling at all because even to park the market to take them back to store is not 2 hours thing but I had no choice than to face it.

While I was trying to arrange everything, someone called my attention that my had given birth in the hospital so I should horry back home so that I will prepare food for her and take it to the hospital. I cried in confusion because it was much on me to handle and no one will do it for me. I parked everything, took them back to the store. Horried home cook pepper soup yam for her and trek to the hospital so exhausted.

My mother was happy to see me and she asked me how I managed to park everything. I told her and saidyou see. I didn't understand what she meant, she told me, you will go to market tomorrow but first of all, go back, bring this and that to me in the hospital. I was crying while walking back home thinking all the work waiting for me.

In the morning of the following day, I went to the river to fetch water as usual.I run and walk at the same time. I cooked food carried all that needed to the hospital, came back home prepare to go to market. People were proud of me. Some said to me, you are a good daughter, you mother will not feel pain at all knowing that her business is still on with you. See me that was thinking people so not appreciate me, who has doubted herself and now people are appreciating me.

From that day onward, I believed in myself. Whatever I said I will do, I will find a way and complete it. Gradually self-doubt left me. I started building confidence, boldness, courage and resilience. Before I reach 15 years, many people thought I was already 20 years because the way I talk or do things was far more than those of my age.

Conclusion

Overcoming self-doubt requires determination. It comes with unexpected responsibilities, assuming that responsibility will help you out to overcoming self-doubt. Fear is good but it won't allow you to grow. If you must overcome self-doubt, you must not fear failure as it is your stepping stone out of self-doubt.

Almost all great Men and women you know overcame self-doubt, low self-esteem before they can move on. I call self-doubt the rope of poverty.

I so much appreciate you all for engaging with my post. Let's continue to do more.