Packing to a new room now 😒

Moving‍‌‍‍‌ to a new room is making me feel different in a strange way. Well not a new feeling because I will confess I'm not the type that likes change, unless situations force me to just like this one.

It's mixed feelings, I'm happy and sad. I emptied my whole dressing cabinet and had to figure out how to shift everything from the old room to the new, bigger one. That's the only thing that makes the movement anything close to a good thing for me.

Spent the whole of yesterday packing, it seemed like too much, pulling out clothes, sorting them, trying to make them fit. It was exhausting, at least, new room is bigger and so the more space makes the effort to be worthwhile.

I am going to miss my old room though. I did not realize how much I had gotten used to it till I finally left. The sunlight through the window, the way the furniture was arranged, the little spots where I kept things, it all came together to a familiarity which I did not realize until it was gone. New room is close to the main house wall so it blocks the sunlight.

My little sister will be using that room from now on. I hope she likes it, although part of me keeps looking back at it, but changes happen and this is a good thing for both of us.

For the new room, because of the size I can put things in a different way, maybe create new habits or spaces that I like. Change is weird in the beginning, I think I speak for a lot of people when I say that. Leaving a room that is familiar, but there is also a desire to move on. I am still thinking about how I will settle in and what will stick, and also what I will regret not being able to see.

I'm probably making a big deal out of this so I'll stop ranting about it.

It is not neat and not smooth, but in a way that is understandable, transitioning from one room to the next, carrying pieces of old life with you while trying to make room for new ‍‌‍‍‌things.

My sister is going to be keeping this cabinet too, that's the part that sucks, but Dad promised he'll get a bigger cabinet so I'll have to manage what I have at the moment.

Not just the room, such is life, change will happen regardless of whether we want it or not, it's our ability to adapt to change that matters most.