RE: Judging Period Week 18: MemeHive Theme Curation Contest

Hey... I am thrilled that my post did win rewards, the 2nd card one. As for what emotional pain or turmoil or crisis I been to... was not abut any romantic break up(:... its about the strain I went through managing my Dad - it's personal...I got issues with him, it's mentioned there but his heart condition was severely poor.

When managing that situation, I was by myself that time - in the diagnosis, management of chores, including food while there was a roach infestation in kitchen adding challenges...and then there began a episode where I went beyond and took help of my Dad siblings in navigating this crisis... seeing various doctors, and having my uncle and cousin accompany me to see surgeon. Then have dad understand his situation, decide on doctor and surgery then and have my family members from abroad come over for support.

I really was super busy... super involved, in deep pain and even then I made visuals and got rewarded in memehive Hive only... on March... then had to manage all this Dad episode,...juggle up a lot, then mmanage home and family... and leave writing, reading all that...

because house arrangement and such things... it was chaos... and then the operation period too I had home, cats and had to be in hospital in shifts. Apart from arranging food for family, they from abroad so Indian conditions are not very stimulating for them.

Then the usual anxiety on if all would go well in operation, there was this tension much before while deciding if dad's should go for surgery... that the operation may not go well... or could lead to complications...had to accept that first...

So was busy throughout and could not be really happy Dad's made it in surgery because he looked totally awful and I was always tired and exhausted. But there was some relief and happiness, it grew day by day.

I got hurt by family too... with statements that they keep saying that I cannot be relied upon, and that I am in family only because I am in the family, I don't have their respect... its from my Dad too... and being that supportive person at his side with this deep hurt was very hard...I had no one to talk to...

but I realised I had people who were willing to listen to me...so I could vent out... I cried for a month non-stop when dad's heart condition was disgonosed as terrible, not exaxtly feeling bad for that...but because of past insults I had got from dad and family... I live in toxic environment and mostly I am failiur in life only(: I keep struggling without results... or concrete results and achiements!

so they don't think anything of me... I am 40 also ...that helps because they don't over protect me but still... its hard the past pain stings so badly at times ...

And then there's the operation journey...and then Dad's consious emergence... he in super paine and weak but would get strenghtened in time with right care... he struggled and I had to take care of someone so weak and do everything for a while...

then I had my journey of recovery taking counselling and chating with chatgpt, getting my routine back and then trying to write(:

I survived... but not merely survived I emerged as someone with potential to grow again... I got so much love and support I never ever got...also respect from others and even acknowledgement, not from family but others...

I did break down, due to family chaus, comments and recently this Dad only said I am such a failiur and I not achieved anything in life... but even then I take it a victory that I managed the situation - Dad's heart episode pretty decently showing emotional maturity and grace, no one knew I had...

What I meant with that romantic relationship statement was - after the heart break, in time you heal and get stronger and wiser to get into relationship with righter person... like that after my break down for other reasons, in time after exhaution, one climbs up, and does things... as I recovered with more insight, and experiencing some personal growth development kind... anyway...

I used tag memehive, not sure I used meme, its always nice to win here(: or be recognized for all my creative works. Atleast 3 or 4 times I got some rewards from memehive contests. And this kept me engaged too when I was living my turmoil March-April, I made memehive posts that got rewards and contests just started and growing... it was mostly on trump tariffs then... I stopped on April because May then was bound to be a difficult month which I was scared to enter!

It passed... memehive community did help engage myself during my emotiional turmoil...all that post diagosis journey... dealing with Dad, being with him and letting him decided on surgery and then...other things... supporting him even in recovery... and me coming back to get those energy levels to write again...

its as good or felt as good with passion flowing, live flowing ... anyway

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